Girl, Interrupted

I just wanna get away. I just wanna escape from this place never to return again. Never to see these same everyday faces. I’m tired of not being about to live my life without someone judging me or disapproving of the things I do and choices I make. I hate feeling as though someone is always watching me, waiting for me to mess up. Waiting for me to do something they can run back and tell my family. Last time I checked I was grown. Ha! Family; I don’t know that word. I thought I had family in the past, but I have now come to realize that the ones I longed for to save me from my reality aren’t family. I’ve come to realize that if you don’t live like they want you to and do what they want you to then they disown you. Throw you out like yesterday’s newspaper and forget all about you. Only to become the black sheep, the runt, the embarrassment, the mistake they wish was never made. To be talked about as the one who had the potential and let it all go to waste. I just wanna get away; escape t...

unconditional .. that's the only word that can be used to describe it .. she chose to keep me .. nine months are carrying me around and hours of labor .. she chose to keep me .. at first though she could not raise me .. i was unaware of where mommy was .. I don't even recollect too much if anything from those beginning years .. but one thing I was sure of was that mommy wasn't there .. when mommy came .. so did change .. the soft earth and sand was replaced by hard concrete .. small homes were replaced by concrete labyrinths called projects .. huge towers of steel, concrete, and glass now stood all around me .. tress galore were replaced by trucks specifically placed in the ground and metal poles with lights and street signs .. when my mother came for me so did change .. then i guess she felt that once again she couldn't handle motherhood .. so she fled again .. but this time i wasn't alone .. i had a little brother to worry about .. then one day mommy felt like sh...

I wish I could kiss the past away. Show you the real me. The me that intrigued you. The me that drew you to me. The me that lies behind, through, and underneath the physical. The me that beneath it all is timid, fearful of being hurt, but longing to love to bad that it hurts. Let me kiss the past away. A kiss so passionate it takes us into the future. A future wanted by the both of us. A future with just you and me faithfully happy with our lived together. A future filled with the beauty of each other’s company. Filled with learning more and more about each other with every passing day and night. Let me kiss the past away as you kiss the pain away. Kiss away all the hurt that’s been done to me. Kiss away the walls I’ve built up to keep everyone out. Kiss me so passionately that it melts away the layers of ice encasing my heart. So that my heart can once again pumps blood through my veins, blood filled with a yearning for you.