Allow Me To Reintroduce Myself...

It's been a while since I've actually written something.  Once upon a time I couldn't go a day without writing something, anything. Writing was my escape. Everything I ever wrote when I was younger, I lost so I decided I would start this page to keep a record of my thoughts, my words, my feelings. Over time I just stopped writing. Lost my passion, my inspiration. I didn't have a drive to do the one thing I loved and I began holding in everything. It got to a point where all the things I held in started building up to the point of explosion, to the point where I could no longer hold it in, yet I wasn't able to write anything down, to get it out the way I was accustomed. I turned to other things. One of those things was drinking. I drank more than a fish. Day after day with no breaks needed. It was to the point where I could drink, throw up, and finish drinking. Mornings I'd wake up with no recollection of my night past a certain point and no idea how I even got home. Thought I could drown my pain with alcohol. Apparently my pain was as much of a fish as I was because it was completely immune.

So, here I am. Years later and thousands of miles away from the United States. I would say home, but being a bit of a nomad I don't necessarily have a place I consider home. That's beside the point though. Here I am overseas working, all alone with no one I know around, no distractions, no alcohol, no sex, no nothing for the next twelve months other than a clear and sober headspace. I've decided to take this time to get back in touch with myself. I'm going to take this time to heal. I'm going on a journey to overcome everything that's been holding me back and everything I've been holding in. My journey of forgiveness and self-love. I've decided that I'm going to document this mental, spiritual, and physical journey as best as possible and reconnect with my first love, writing.

Let the journey begin...