3 AM Thoughts...

Too much faith and trust in people. Sometimes, most times, that’s usually the issue. We give people things they don’t deserve and haven’t even began to earn. We allow people to feel as though they have power over us that they shouldn’t and bend to their will when we shouldn’t. Too many times we do this and go out of our way for individuals who wouldn’t even hold the door open for us or even say “Bless you” when you sneeze only to get nothing back in return, but the sound “I told you so” and “you’re foolish” whispered in the breeze. The universe’s way of reminding you of how naïve, gullible, and simply idiotic you were for believing that would have ended any other way. They say there’s someone out there for everyone, I’m starting to believe that’s just some fairy tale nonsense they tell people to make them feel less bad about themselves being lonely; spreading false hope to the masses. Just tell me there’s no one for me and that’s I’m destined to live life as a loner so I can accept my fate and move forward. Tell me that the cold, negative me who doesn’t trust, but is trusting and who always ruins the good things that come her way because he past has made her more fucked up than she is aware isn’t able to have and hold on to anything nice because deep down inside the secrets that will be uncovered are too ugly to be tolerated regardless of how beautiful the outside is and how great the intentions because at the end of the day it’s all going to come right back around to the point where the ugliness reigns supreme. That is until it’s recognized and shoved back into its box until it gets strong enough and the façade gets weak enough for it to come back out again, but by that time whoever was there, is gone.