Alone

I WILL ALWAYS BE ALONE. NO MATTER WHETHER OR NOT I'M SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE I'M ALWAYS ALONE. I'M ALONE BECAUSE NO ONE WILL EVER UNDERSTAND ME. NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON INSIDE MY MIND, INSIDE MY HEART. NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW THE PAIN I FEEL INSIDE. NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW THE TEARS I'VE CRIED AND AM STILL CRYING. THE PAIN THAT I FEEL IS UNBEARABLE YET I STILL WALK WITH THIS HEAVY LOAD ON MY SHOULDERS WHILE KEEPING MY HEAD AS HIGH AS I POSSIBLY COULD. TRYING MY BEST TO MOVE FORWARD DAY BY DAY WITHOUT LETTING ANYONE SEE HOW MUCH I'M HURTING. I WALK AROUND CARRYING MY BURDEN, MY CURSE, WEARING A MASK THAT NO ONE CAN SEE THROUGH. AT TIMES I BEGIN TO SLOWLY REMOVE IT, BUT THEN I REALIZE THAT I CANNOT, I MUST NOT. I HAVE TO KEEP EVERYTHING INSIDE. THESE PEOPLE DO NOT NEED TO KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON WITH ME. CAN I EVEN TRUST THEM WITH MY SECRETS? CAN I TRUST THEM ENOUGH TO LET MY GUARD DOWN AND TO BECOME VULNERABLE? CAN I TRUST THEM NOT TO USE ME AND ABUSE ME? CAN I TRUST THEM NOT TO BREAK ME DOWN MORE THAN ALREADY AM? NO, I CANNOT. PEOPLE AREN'T TO BE TRUSTED. THEY ALL END UP TURNING ON YOU AND HURTING YOU. THEY ALL END UP BETRAYING YOU. YOU MUST NEVER LET ANY ONE PERSON KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU BECAUSE WHEN THINGS BECOME SOUR AND YOU BECOME ENEMIES THEY WILL USE EVERYTHING THEY KNOW ABOUT YOU TO HURT YOU. I KNOW.